I'll be the first to admit that I've been a terrible blogger lately...
I just haven't been in the mood for a few months.
I've just had other priorities I guess. Do you ever get that way?!
Well... December has been a weird month.
Gordon went to work December 3rd and when I called him at 10am to see what time he thought he'd be off for the day he said, "I'll be home in an hour, I just got laid off."
{Merry Christmas}
They just said it was a trickle effect from the big lay off the company did in May.
So... now what?!
I have to be honest. Gordon didn't love his job. It was a good "job" that paid the bills, but definately not a career for him. He worked long hours {sometimes between 60-80 a week} and was paid salary for 40. He left before the boys got up and got home an hour or two before they went to bed or sometimes didn't see them at all. I've actually seen some positive changes in Gordon since the lay off and we are optimistic about the future. The boys LOVE having their dad home and it has been so nice not having to worry about rushing back to Utah so he can go to work on Monday. We are looking at this as an opportunity for something better. He is even considering going back to school. He has always wanted to get his Master's Degree, but never could have done it working where he was.
So for now he is going to continue to apply for jobs and start studying for the GMAT.
I've noticed a change in myself through this time in our lives... it was nice having that security of a weekly pay check. I'm a planner and like to have something to look forward to. I have faith and I know that there is a plan for us, but the unknown for me has been hard. I'm not one to fake it and just put on a happy face.
Some of my thoughts lately-
I've enjoyed being able to attend the temple weekly... great comfort is found in the house of the Lord.
Waking up next to Gordon each morning is the best!
Seeing Gordon less stressed and happier... worth it!
How are we going to pay all the bills when the money runs out?
Should I look for a job?
I'm so happy my boys are too young to understand.
I've loved going to the gym together :)
I'm grateful for good friends and their support.
We aren't the only ones facing this challenge right now.
Should we move back to ID?
What am I suppose to learn from this?
I'm grateful that Gordon is positive and optimisic. I'm so proud of him and the amazing father and husband that he is. I'm grateful we have each other to lean on and make decisions with. Yes, this is a pretty big deal, but no it's not something we can't handle. I know that our Father in heaven is watching over us and that he has a plan for us.
So... it's a Season of change and we are looking forward to a New Year and a new adventure.
We are in ID with family until... well we really don't know when. I guess until we feel like going back to UT :)
We hope you are all enjoying your holidays and wish you a Happy New Year!!
